I don't know. Knowing what I do now, there's no way things would turn out the same way he remembers them for me. So much of what happened depended on me not knowing things, for them to turn out the way they did for him.
[there's basically no way for her timeline to flow into his; they won't match up anymore.]
...it's really strange to think about. And a little scary, too.
[they need to go home, but -
it'll feel almost like losing them, somehow, she thinks. though she doesn't know the specifics, it's probably even worse for mineo and sasazuka - from what she's heard bits and pieces of when they've talked in public, it's not just a matter of being further ahead in time for them.]
[ . . . . how complicated. it makes him falter a little bit to think about - to think about how sqx's future might be completely changed so that she may very well never meet the ming yi that's gone through this whole thing with her.
he shifts a little uncomfortably, and then getting a little close to a truth that he's been holding close to the chest - ]
... I know that wishes are up in the air - and I... I don't know what yours or Ming Yi-san's are but...
I'm - changing what I originally came for. I don't know if it's more or less expensive than my original wish, but... I decided I'm following Takeru to his timeline, whatever that means. Just so the memories that I've made here can chase after him when I think he might need me. Is this too much...? [softly, like he's trying to still be mindful of takeru's privacy]
Maybe that's one thing but... I'm sorry.
That it's so complicated.
[and - if she'll allow it - he will let his hand just rest on top of hers, warm and steady]
...he's lucky to have someone like you in his life, Mineo.
[her situation seems hopeless to her. much better to focus on his, especially because it doesn't seem anywhere near as focus! wow, what a good (boy)friend mineo is to sasazuka.]
I think there may be a lot of us whose original wishes have changed. Mine... doesn't really apply anymore. I have some idea what I'd ask for, if it does turn out that we still get something at the end of this, but - first and foremost, we need to figure out how to get the dead back.
[if that's something they can use their wishes on, at the end...]
You know we're all just as lucky to know you though, right?
[it's easy to mirror the sincerity - but he still smiles like he's touched, happy to hear that maybe he can add something to the lives of people he cares about.
though he seems thoughtful at her statement, nodding a little bit as he goes to look at the stars]
.... yeah. I just... Wishes can't be negotiable - no matter what happens. For us, for the Avatars... I just want to make sure that all of this -
It actually means something. But... I still hope that you figure out what you want, out of your situation too. Greed-san told me to not lose sight of my goals while I'm here... so don't be so selfless you forget to demand stuff for you too, yeah?
[there's a brief pause where she seems to be struggling for words, but - she manages a smile.]
It's very kind of you to say that.
[but, right... her gaze follows his to the stars, and she hums thoughtfully.]
I agree with you - I don't want us all to have suffered for no reason. [she's not sure that any wish could be worth the loss of life, but - if they manage to come out of it, it would almost be too sad to have nothing to show for their time here but new traumas.] ...and, ahaha, I'm really not as selfless as you think, Mineo. I have an idea of what I want to ask for.
And I think I know how to get it even after we return home, if it's not possible here.
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[honestly, she just has no idea]
I don't know. Knowing what I do now, there's no way things would turn out the same way he remembers them for me. So much of what happened depended on me not knowing things, for them to turn out the way they did for him.
[there's basically no way for her timeline to flow into his; they won't match up anymore.]
...it's really strange to think about. And a little scary, too.
[they need to go home, but -
it'll feel almost like losing them, somehow, she thinks. though she doesn't know the specifics, it's probably even worse for mineo and sasazuka - from what she's heard bits and pieces of when they've talked in public, it's not just a matter of being further ahead in time for them.]
...a little lonely.
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he shifts a little uncomfortably, and then getting a little close to a truth that he's been holding close to the chest - ]
... I know that wishes are up in the air - and I... I don't know what yours or Ming Yi-san's are but...
I'm - changing what I originally came for. I don't know if it's more or less expensive than my original wish, but... I decided I'm following Takeru to his timeline, whatever that means. Just so the memories that I've made here can chase after him when I think he might need me. Is this too much...? [softly, like he's trying to still be mindful of takeru's privacy]
Maybe that's one thing but... I'm sorry.
That it's so complicated.
[and - if she'll allow it - he will let his hand just rest on top of hers, warm and steady]
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[she smiles faintly at that]
...he's lucky to have someone like you in his life, Mineo.
[her situation seems hopeless to her. much better to focus on his, especially because it doesn't seem anywhere near as focus! wow, what a good (boy)friend mineo is to sasazuka.]
I think there may be a lot of us whose original wishes have changed. Mine... doesn't really apply anymore. I have some idea what I'd ask for, if it does turn out that we still get something at the end of this, but - first and foremost, we need to figure out how to get the dead back.
[if that's something they can use their wishes on, at the end...]
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[it's easy to mirror the sincerity - but he still smiles like he's touched, happy to hear that maybe he can add something to the lives of people he cares about.
though he seems thoughtful at her statement, nodding a little bit as he goes to look at the stars]
.... yeah. I just... Wishes can't be negotiable - no matter what happens. For us, for the Avatars... I just want to make sure that all of this -
It actually means something. But... I still hope that you figure out what you want, out of your situation too. Greed-san told me to not lose sight of my goals while I'm here... so don't be so selfless you forget to demand stuff for you too, yeah?
Maybe we can both try to remember that.
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It's very kind of you to say that.
[but, right... her gaze follows his to the stars, and she hums thoughtfully.]
I agree with you - I don't want us all to have suffered for no reason. [she's not sure that any wish could be worth the loss of life, but - if they manage to come out of it, it would almost be too sad to have nothing to show for their time here but new traumas.] ...and, ahaha, I'm really not as selfless as you think, Mineo. I have an idea of what I want to ask for.
And I think I know how to get it even after we return home, if it's not possible here.