There simply isn't much to say. I had reasons to kill her, but having reasons doesn't stop it from hurting her and the people who cared about her. I didn't want to do it, but I still chose to anyway.
...I couldn't confess to it, which was frustrating, but.
[she doesn't want to turn this into an "oh, poor me" kind of thing. not when they still have so much they need to do.]
[well that's. something. he looks a little confused but]
... I'm sorry you had to hold onto it all yourself. I'm not saying that anything that happened was okay [it gets a little close to his own situation? even though there are enough differences] but.... it's still a weight on your shoulders.
...I was told later that if I hadn't done it, someone else would have been asked to. So - in that sense, I'm glad I could keep that weight from being put onto someone else.
I'm happy to have had the chance to meet you, too.
[everything else about the indulgence center aside -
being here has given her the chance to meet so many people that she never would have, otherwise. meeting mineo has been one of the better parts of it.]
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shiftingwinds) wrote2021-02-10 07:01 pm
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.... yeah. I get that too.
[ . . . ]
We don't have to talk about it if you don't want to but... I heard you say that you did it to try to save the rest of us.
So... I get it.
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[...]
There simply isn't much to say. I had reasons to kill her, but having reasons doesn't stop it from hurting her and the people who cared about her. I didn't want to do it, but I still chose to anyway.
...I couldn't confess to it, which was frustrating, but.
[she doesn't want to turn this into an "oh, poor me" kind of thing. not when they still have so much they need to do.]
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You couldn't....?
[well that's. something. he looks a little confused but]
... I'm sorry you had to hold onto it all yourself. I'm not saying that anything that happened was okay [it gets a little close to his own situation? even though there are enough differences] but.... it's still a weight on your shoulders.
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[she sighs]
...I was told later that if I hadn't done it, someone else would have been asked to. So - in that sense, I'm glad I could keep that weight from being put onto someone else.
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[after all that.]
I don't know if anything that we've done is right, or if the choices we've made are correct but -
It would've been hard to lose you. Speaking as your friend.
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[which is honestly what happened here, she thinks.]
I'm... glad that you can still think of me as a friend, after everything. It feels a little selfish to say that, but I am.
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... of course I do.
[and that comes without much hesitation]
You sat with me after my mess of a trial, and even if you didn't -
Of course I do.
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she looks stunned (although she shouldn't be, given the circumstances), and then touched, and her smile actually reaches her eyes.]
...I'm lucky, then - to have a friend like you.
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I think it's the other way around, Shi-san. But I guess we can both be lucky to have each other.
I'm really happy that I've gotten to meet you.
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[everything else about the indulgence center aside -
being here has given her the chance to meet so many people that she never would have, otherwise. meeting mineo has been one of the better parts of it.]
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offering it out for a bump!]
And with our stubbornness combined, we'll show this place who's boss, right?
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Right. We don't let some stupid furby beat us.