The Battle of Sekigahara in the year 1600 when the Western Army, led by Ishida Mitsunari, fought against the Eastern Army, led by Tokugawa Ieyasu... which led to deciding the entire future of Japan!
It's a big deal - so our last hurrah's gonna be the same way, and it'll be our victory for sure!
There simply isn't much to say. I had reasons to kill her, but having reasons doesn't stop it from hurting her and the people who cared about her. I didn't want to do it, but I still chose to anyway.
...I couldn't confess to it, which was frustrating, but.
[she doesn't want to turn this into an "oh, poor me" kind of thing. not when they still have so much they need to do.]
[well that's. something. he looks a little confused but]
... I'm sorry you had to hold onto it all yourself. I'm not saying that anything that happened was okay [it gets a little close to his own situation? even though there are enough differences] but.... it's still a weight on your shoulders.
...I was told later that if I hadn't done it, someone else would have been asked to. So - in that sense, I'm glad I could keep that weight from being put onto someone else.
I'm happy to have had the chance to meet you, too.
[everything else about the indulgence center aside -
being here has given her the chance to meet so many people that she never would have, otherwise. meeting mineo has been one of the better parts of it.]
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shiftingwinds) wrote2021-02-10 07:01 pm
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Our what?
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The Battle of Sekigahara in the year 1600 when the Western Army, led by Ishida Mitsunari, fought against the Eastern Army, led by Tokugawa Ieyasu... which led to deciding the entire future of Japan!
It's a big deal - so our last hurrah's gonna be the same way, and it'll be our victory for sure!
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xie lian would probably like hearing this story, she thinks. she'll have to get more info about this battle to take back later. for now, though - ]
Right. It definitely will - we won't accept anything less than that.
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[and he'll say that immediately with a big grin]
.... you worked hard for it, right? [a beat] Even if it's hard to say it like that.
But... you've been doing your best this whole time too, right?
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she really hopes he's not referring to "killing eleanor" as "working hard".
she looks down.]
...I've been doing the best that I can. [...] I don't know that it's enough, but it's my best.
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.... yeah. I get that too.
[ . . . ]
We don't have to talk about it if you don't want to but... I heard you say that you did it to try to save the rest of us.
So... I get it.
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[...]
There simply isn't much to say. I had reasons to kill her, but having reasons doesn't stop it from hurting her and the people who cared about her. I didn't want to do it, but I still chose to anyway.
...I couldn't confess to it, which was frustrating, but.
[she doesn't want to turn this into an "oh, poor me" kind of thing. not when they still have so much they need to do.]
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You couldn't....?
[well that's. something. he looks a little confused but]
... I'm sorry you had to hold onto it all yourself. I'm not saying that anything that happened was okay [it gets a little close to his own situation? even though there are enough differences] but.... it's still a weight on your shoulders.
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[she sighs]
...I was told later that if I hadn't done it, someone else would have been asked to. So - in that sense, I'm glad I could keep that weight from being put onto someone else.
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[after all that.]
I don't know if anything that we've done is right, or if the choices we've made are correct but -
It would've been hard to lose you. Speaking as your friend.
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[which is honestly what happened here, she thinks.]
I'm... glad that you can still think of me as a friend, after everything. It feels a little selfish to say that, but I am.
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... of course I do.
[and that comes without much hesitation]
You sat with me after my mess of a trial, and even if you didn't -
Of course I do.
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she looks stunned (although she shouldn't be, given the circumstances), and then touched, and her smile actually reaches her eyes.]
...I'm lucky, then - to have a friend like you.
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I think it's the other way around, Shi-san. But I guess we can both be lucky to have each other.
I'm really happy that I've gotten to meet you.
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[everything else about the indulgence center aside -
being here has given her the chance to meet so many people that she never would have, otherwise. meeting mineo has been one of the better parts of it.]
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offering it out for a bump!]
And with our stubbornness combined, we'll show this place who's boss, right?
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Right. We don't let some stupid furby beat us.