[7rings] catchall for medb

[shiftingwinds]

cries about wanting to make visualosities while i'm at work

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w7, thursday

[shiftingwinds]

[they're in the same general area. sqx has ice wrapped up in a towel pressed over her face. please don't expect anything better out of me ara i've been up since 3 am and im bad at writing starters]

[fergalicious]

[ please go to bed early tonight, britt.

She sighs as she looks at SQX and motions for her to come over. ]

Come on. Let's sit and rest, hm? Hope tonight hasn't been too dramatic for you over your big reveal.

[shiftingwinds]

[(looks at clock. hm.)

anyway, she heads over to join medb.]

...mostly I'm relieved that she was able to even be here to reveal it at all.

[fergalicious]

[ if you're not in bed, go to bed.

She nods after a moment. ]

It's good to see that the Avatars were able to do something and that the dead can join us. Were you planning on keeping it quiet, if she hadn't?

[shiftingwinds]

[im sitting in my bed?]

I didn't plan to keep it quiet in the first place. But when I tried to say something, the words wouldn't come out no matter how hard I tried to speak.

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so that was fun!]

[fergalicious]

[ close your eyes and slumber. ]

... Huh. You weren't allowed to confess? Until today, or...?

[ Was it because of the special circumstances of that murder or something else?

Since Law was able to admit it. ]

Is it better for you now that you can say something about it?

[shiftingwinds]

[im too hype for endgame]

Today is the first I've been able to say anything about it.

[she looks down at her hands]

I don't know if it's better or worse. It just - it is. I'm relieved to not be lying to all of you by omission anymore, but I think how Eleanor feels about it is more important than how I feel about it.

[fergalicious]

Hm, sure.

[ It's not something she'll say is wrong. ]

Murder is murder. I'm not going to argue that, and I'm not really trying to make you feel better or worse about it, but if you haven't been able to say anything, isn't it better to say whatever you want about it?

[shiftingwinds]

Maybe it is, but...

But I don't think it will really help matters at all for me to say "I didn't want to kill her," when I still did it, you know? [...] And it won't really help to say "I wanted to tell you all," when I couldn't.

[fergalicious]

Being helpless and powerless is frustrating. Being unable to do what you'd like is terrible.

Doing things you don't want to even if you recognize the necessity - that's life.

[shiftingwinds]

...wise words.

["that's life," indeed.]

[fergalicious]

So what do you plan to do next?

[shiftingwinds]

Work as hard as I can to make sure they and everyone else gets home.