[just a little longer. it's true; she can always give up her godhood, after... but then what? her hand lingers at her throat for a moment longer, and she sighs.]
Right. I have to figure something out. I keep - seeing it, all of it, every time I close my eyes. [honestly the memory was kind of a horrorshow.] ...but I think it's better to know, than to not know about it.
...at least I have this time to figure out what to do.
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but that really is a lot of responsibility to have on a person. ]
It's always hard when it's siblings, huh...
I think you just need to choose the answer that you'd most be able to live with. Even if it means just holding onto the powers just a little longer.
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[just a little longer. it's true; she can always give up her godhood, after... but then what? her hand lingers at her throat for a moment longer, and she sighs.]
Right. I have to figure something out. I keep - seeing it, all of it, every time I close my eyes. [honestly the memory was kind of a horrorshow.] ...but I think it's better to know, than to not know about it.
...at least I have this time to figure out what to do.
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[ since it just hurts instead.
he'll take another sip of the drink. ]
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[...she smiles very faintly. it doesn't entirely reach her eyes, but. eh.]
Thank you for listening.
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[ ... ]
Just try not let the guilt eat you alive, Shi Qingxuan.
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then she smiles again, and it actually does reach her eyes this time.]
It's not allowed to do that until I set this right.
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[ he won't be this nice again it's fine. ]
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she downed her drink earlier, so she pours another and then lifts it. cheers.]