[7rings] catchall for sasazuka

[shiftingwinds]

something will go here later once i know more about sasazuka being canonblind to most of these people is hell for prettying these posts up.

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[shiftingwinds]

I don't want to tell you to fuck off... that would be rude!

[oh my god that would have been a suggested action if he hadn't already told her to accept his apology. missed opportunities.]

...you really don't mind?

[dotcom]

[ we have to redo the thread right now immediately

but he shrugs. ]

Not really.

[shiftingwinds]

[rolls up sleeves and goes to delete this entire thread]

...it's a bit of a long story. [she taps her fingers on the bar's countertop] Parts of it won't make sense unless I explain what gods are in my world.

We aren't born as gods - we're born mortal. We become gods after ascending, usually through hard work or because there was some kind of potential within us. Either way, it's supposed to be on our own merits.

[dotcom]

[ he nods. ]

Okay. That's similar to how some mythology worked where I'm from.

[shiftingwinds]

Really? [huh! most people have been like "what, really..." so far, so that's kind of exciting. she'll have to ask him more about it later.

when she's not in the process of explaining her tragic backstory.]

...my brother ascended naturally. [...] I thought I did too. But, as it turns out... that wasn't the case. He used the power he gained as a god to... [she taps the bar, a little aggravated.] ...he swapped my fate with the fate of someone who was meant to ascend.

I was just supposed to be an ordinary, common mortal, and I don't think I was ever meant to escape the monster that was following me. But, because our fates were swapped... I ascended to the heavens. Someone else was tormented by that creature in my place.

[dotcom]

[ ah, that's hard. to know that it was supposed to be you until someone else intervened and suffered instead.

... ]

What did your brother say about that? If you confronted him over it.

[shiftingwinds]

...I haven't had the chance to yet. I - saw it. In someone else's memory. If I hadn't seen that, I might have gone this whole time without ever realizing...

[awkward.]

[dotcom]

[ awkward indeed.

... ]

You have time to decide what your next step will be then.

[shiftingwinds]

...he has to take responsibility for what he did. That much, I know for sure.

[but... it's her brother, so. (this is why i was laughing when i got your memshare, francy!)]

And I need to take responsibility for what was done in my name.

[dotcom]

[ i hate this

but he just nods his head. ]

No, I agree. Even if you didn't know what was going on, you don't seem the type to just let something like that go.

[shiftingwinds]

I definitely can't. It's... It shouldn't have happened.

[she sighs, then downs the rest of her drink.]

That creature was my problem to deal with. I know he did it because he wanted to save me, but he ruined someone else's life, and the lives of his family, to do it. That's not solving the problem... It's just making it worse. And that thing still ended up finding me again anyway.

[so like. what was even the point.]

...Ming-xiong is from further ahead than I am. He remembered things I didn't. I - he said when I found out about it, I gave up my divinity. [...] But I saw... My brother was there, and when it was his turn to take responsibility, he...

[her hand comes up to rest briefly over her throat.]

He said we wouldn't last, and that if he wouldn't have the power to take care of me, then we might as well die together.

[...]

I don't want to keep the powers I shouldn't have had, but I think I might need them to make him take responsibility for what he did.

[dotcom]

[ well now that i am not horribly distracted by the cyoa group

but that really is a lot of responsibility to have on a person. ]

It's always hard when it's siblings, huh...

I think you just need to choose the answer that you'd most be able to live with. Even if it means just holding onto the powers just a little longer.

[shiftingwinds]

...

[just a little longer. it's true; she can always give up her godhood, after... but then what? her hand lingers at her throat for a moment longer, and she sighs.]

Right. I have to figure something out. I keep - seeing it, all of it, every time I close my eyes. [honestly the memory was kind of a horrorshow.] ...but I think it's better to know, than to not know about it.

...at least I have this time to figure out what to do.

[dotcom]

... well, even if it's better, it doesn't make it easier. Or good to know.

[ since it just hurts instead.

he'll take another sip of the drink. ]

[shiftingwinds]

Mm, it doesn't.

[...she smiles very faintly. it doesn't entirely reach her eyes, but. eh.]

Thank you for listening.

[dotcom]

Mm.

[ ... ]

Just try not let the guilt eat you alive, Shi Qingxuan.

[shiftingwinds]

[she looks briefly surprised by that, but -

then she smiles again, and it actually does reach her eyes this time.]

It's not allowed to do that until I set this right.

[dotcom]

Mm. That's the spirit.

[ he won't be this nice again it's fine. ]

[shiftingwinds]

[


she downed her drink earlier, so she pours another and then lifts it. cheers.]